It’s my first semester towards my Bachelor’s Degree. So far, I feel like I’m freaking out over all of the tech-supportey stuff involved. I’m in my own head about how I fear not getting stuff done. My new glasses haven’t happened yet, speech-recognition hasn’t happened yet. Patience has never been my strength. I need to be disciplined with my time and wake up every day early, then keep working and not self-soothe my nerves with Solitaire and tv. I want to pick myself up from my bootstraps again. I must use the word “want” instead of “need”. I need to have food, water, clothing, and a roof over my head. I have all that I “need” as those things are concerned. If I phrase it as I “want” to study and enjoy the process of discovering what I want to do and where I want to go, I can overcome this paralysis. Young people seem to have it together a lot more than me because they are digital natives, most of the tech-supportey stuff is second-nature to them. They don’t have to have laser-focus on it and can get on with studies and attention to their goals. Of course, it’s an illusion, they have other obstacles and hurdles. I just need to do my best and know that my best is pretty good.